Where is everyone

[BUCKY]

Thanks for the welcome back, guys! It had been long enuff, I 'bout had forgotten how to log on!!! lol

[popeye]

Nice to see you back mate, dont work tooooo hard

[dogfish7 (R.I.P.)]

No, the rumors are false. I'm not dead Just been working every week end for the last few months.

[olskoolrodder]

I'm still livin' too...a little bit,LOL! LOTS going on round here. Nothing really knew. If y'all remember I was about to divorce this time last year (then the house burned)...well,I haven't told her yet (I'm doing things differently,better for us both),but we migh-as-well have done it last year. I'm done-I've forgiven her of all wrongs,so it's not anger this time,it's just...run it's course.

SO it may be a bit longer before I get back to building and back on regularly,otsta move and get settledagain and all. Miss y'all though

[darcy]

Sorry to hear that Steve stay strong Bro!
Darcy

[monaro]

Man that sucks we will be waiting here for you.

[intimidator]

Been there-sorry to hear. Be right here for ya.

[olskoolrodder]

Thanks guys. It's funny...there HAS TO BE someone who'll hear that that will just roll their eyes,LOL,it isn't something new,I was right here in the same position last year...and the year before and before that too

The difference is only this...not pretending that I have not made more than my share of mistakes over the last 19+ years,but everything that I had held against her (whether deserving to have been or not) has been forgiven and dealt with...I'm not angry or resentful-I'm just not happy. Too much history to move forward,I feel,and I no longer (for a LONG time now) feel that kind of love for her that husbands do for their wives. Oh I love her...but more of a deep concern for her than a love. It became obvious to me many months ago that the woman I HAD fallen in love with (and had left cold and hanging nearly a year ago,to come back here to try this last time) still holds my heart,though until last week I didn't know if she were even still alive (let alone single and forgiving).

For those that share my Christian beliefs and faith,yes I know full well what His Word (the Bible) says about this subject,and exactly where is says it-but I have also spent many a day/night in prayer with Him,as well as with others to Him about this,and I feel a peace about this other woman-who has patiently waited in prayer and trusting in His knowing of all things,hoping He would bring us back together (she has literally waited,single,hoping even now a year later that we would be together...this,having not heard anything from me in nearly a year).

Yeah,I know His Word on the subject,and I know He can do ANYthing,including fix a broken marriage if He so chose to do so. But I also know He won't mess with our free will,and that He does what He chooses,and He can choose to bring two people together if He so wills to,and I honestly believe in my heart that's what He's done with this other woman and her son and I (and my kids).

Besides...my wife has never loved me for who I am,she has always tried to change the fundamentals of who I am into someone else...she's in love with being in love and being married,and who I am now and who she is now,her hopes dreams and plans vs mine,how she wants to live her life vs me and mine,are incompatitble. Better to do it now than live unhappy any longer,we only get one go round,afterall.

ANYways....isn't it always the way,when one cannot do something (build,knowing everything's getting ready to change and move) is when they want to do it the most? I'm ACHING to build something,hahaha!

And don't worry...I won't turn here into a place to rant,whine,cry or vent,but know that I appreciate the thoughts and prayers greatly ;D

[intimidator]

I too was in a similar situation; only it was I with most of the mistakes (say; 70/30) and the failure to try harder and do what it takes to be married happily. It cost my son and I a close relationship as well as real hard feelings between my ex and I. Then I grew up, built a relationship with Christ, asked her for forgiveness (she said no), asked God for forgiveness (He said yes), then I had to pull myself out of a great depression brought on by my regrets (the whole time my wife now helping me through it), and forgive myself. (which was the hardest part) I now am married to a woman who I simply cannot live without, and do EVERYTHING I can think of to make her life easier. God has brought ALL my children home to me, and we are truly in love and no power but God Himself could break us apart. I consider her a gift (second chance?), and thank God EVERY night for her. I'll pray for you and your situation; you're on the right track brother; lean on Him and He'll guide your paths!

[olskoolrodder]

MUCH appreciated,my friend. You're right,He has never (nor will He ever) steered me wrong-it's so easy to see looking back at every wrong turn,He let me make my own choices and learn (hpefully) from it.

I will readily admit,at least in the first 13 years or so the problems were 70+% my doing,my bads. It did tip over in her direction after that-BUT I'm wise enough to know that most of what she's done that's been issues betweenst us were still brought on and some-what understandable (if not justifiable) by some of the things I'd put her through.

I do understand His Word on divorce and alla this,and it's been no small decision,and there've been bukoos of friends I've prayed over it with. I could still be makig a wrong decision...time will tell,but if so it's done not realising it and I trust in what I John 1:9 says completely

[hotrodmodeler]

Steve,mi amigo
Stay strong and understand we are not here to judge ANYTHING you put here. We are (I) am here to be a friend and sounding post.
The ONLY PERSON who knows what is right for you , IS YOU!
You need to get through this & come out the other side.
YOU know we will be here for you as you go through this.
I have gone through the same thing you are going through , almost exactly, and after the dust settled, I realized I am a much happier grounded person NOW , than I was then.
GOD BLESS YOU & guide you.
8-)RICK

[olskoolrodder]

Thanks,ol Buddy-you really don't know how much it means just knowin it